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heh. blogging again after another hiatus. oh wells. sry. i juz sian so dun feel like writing anything. heh.so hear i am anyway.

this must sound boring. but hey! guess wad? i can run faster! heh heh. 2.4 can break 11 mins soon. will know fer sure on monday. yesterday couldnt. cause last min got lightning warning. -.- du lan man. on my 5th round.. wth.. almost dere.. but i tink i hav to realli pus fer lst few rnds otherwise no kick. k. nth else to sae. bye.

ah. finally im blogging. heh. got back ALL results liao. -.O dismal honestly. not SO bad. but... kinda bad? haha dunno sia. it's juz not good, but good enuf to get me to j2? ahha. calculated everything liao. to get to j2, i need like a whole bunch of sub-passes and Es fer all my subjs. yea.. not so good rite? how e fuck to get E or sub-pass fer geog? hard hard... but den again. i onli need one h2. den e rest all juz pass can liao. gp get sub can. whoo. ahha.

im failing to burn the dvd dat hongtaa passed to me. .. wth. sucks la. i tink jethro's pics seem to be corrupted. cant touch em wadsoeva. argh. lucky got bernie. XD managed to get her to help me burn. haha...

ah. morrow is wed. level run. ... i realli desire to complete and clear level 0. im the slowest guy. and here i am moping about in the dirt. i cant take dis dismal shit anymore. but im realli not physically up to the task? or am i being a defeatist. i dunno. i'll try for it morrow. i need to keep trying. i noe i can do it. one day. patience i lack.




mayb dis can remind me. strengthen me.

whoo. whoooooo. whoooooooooooooo. WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

random noises? no... dis is me. imitating an owl. but at the moment i sound like a retard (look like one too). ah wells. im feeling random and utterly... ECCENTRIC right now. XD so.. get ready before u read on. if anyone's reading anyway. yea.

ROIT. so now. my left arm is totally. completely busted. it makes wanking realli hard.. XD jk. JK. realli. im JK. and anyway, i dun wank with my left hand. so ya. gosh.. went bboying at liu's place on thurs. haha... painful man.. the deterioration of skill. -.O sucks. jumped into an airbaby and flipped over.. haha. den i came up with the INVERT airbaby. XDD genius. ... ... yea rite. it dun take a big brain to come up with it. boom. and now my upper vertebra is completely sore. ouch. ladies and gentlemen, dis is why bboying is so inaccurately known as breakdancing. disgusting misconception. yea.

anyhow... im not actually sure wad my inverted airbaby looks like. so gotta hav liu take a shot of it and tell me. haha! bet it looks like sum demented karma sutra position. o.O yea. wadeva. i HOPE not anyhow.. gosh. imagine. me on e stage during floorskillz interschool looking like im blowing myself. -.o damn. wad embarrassment. id hav to move outta the country. to... afghanistan? XD mayb dey dun mind solo blowjobs. haha!

ooh. potter is on... go watch. boo.

training today wuz.. o.O" yea. hha. quite slack la. but... enjoyable? yea.. definitely. anything with odac is mostly enjoyable. like. prashan wuz doin lev 3 today.. so we were told to run behind him in groups fer min of 2-3 laps. yea. whoo... lev3 is damn fast sia.. literally sprinting alongside him. i burned on my first 2 rnds and jumped wagon.. lol. prashan is damn strong man.. take my hat off u. u could hav done the last round.. dunno wad happened.. NVM. nxt time will be THE time man. XD yea. we'll try to cheer u as well.

MEGA disappointed with my 2.4 timing though. after XP it juz siddled down to 12 mins plus. im gonna kick myself in the head. realli. but.. yea. im trying to get my dream timing but it's gonna take time. so yea. slowly. i'll get dere. 3 Ps. Perserverence. Patience. Persistence. im so gonna own la.

yea. but im perturbed by u noe wad. so.. yea. im still thinking and pondering wad to do. im walking blind for now.

heh heh.. managed to borrow Great Expectations from jez.. hha.. not bad sia.. quite fun to watch.. i mean. it's realli one thing to read e novel and watch e movie version. so cool. ahha. quite freaky oso la i guess. i mean.. e tone of the novel wuz like so light-hearted. honestly. now dere's cold murder here. damn freaky. wth. the main character's sister juz got bludgeoned like no body's buisness. hais. quite strange. and yea... very very much diff from e novelization. ahha.

morrow.. morrow morning got level run.. man... i dunno if i can make it sia.. hais. it's not dat i hate running. it's juz dat.. everytime i run.. i feel so... inferior. it's cutting and wearing down on my mental strength. long term weathering can break stones to dust. so yea. right now im still holding on. but hu noes, furthur down the road? more along the year.? i reall realli dunno. it's.. worrying. yea. i juz hope i'll see some change and improvement. god. i realli pray so. but i noe dat i need to put in my share of effort to see some effects.. im so scared i'll juz break down like i did on chamah. i... im utterly worried. yea. no more laughs here. here is where im realli depending on my frenz. now wen it's realli starting to wear me down. yea. no doubt bout it.

yea. on a happier note. :DD i passed my maths. heh heh. first time sia..veri veri tyco i should tink. out of 5 ppl dat passed. haha. i literally screamed my head off luh. bit insensitive of me. should've tot bout everyone else. need to wake up my idea. jezreel looked disraught. mayb... yea. i'll go ask her weder she needs help. not dat im any much better of course.. juz dat mayb i can get her familiarised with sum stuff or wad. yea. dunno.

gosh. great expectations is realli.. scary. lol. it's like.. how susceptible man is to the temptations of power and monetary gain. scary scary. i mean... joe gargery's face wuz like.. utterly... broken up wen pip left. without a hug i mean. i mean look! joe's like e nearest ting pip's got to a father. gosh.

kk. im gonna go and watch e rest of it. peace. ciao.

sian. sian. SIAN. god oh so sian. jeez. tot i'd get back my geog results today. kill joy. or not? haha. it's a sure fail sia.. so im not too sure why im so eager to get it back. :P lol. hope i nver hav to see it. burn it immiediately i get it. haha. lol. oh and shit. PTM is compulsory. fuck. teacher's and parents mixing? not good. not good at all. u get very explosive stuff like nitrous oxide. dammit. i hate such arrangements. ah well. it's nxt week. so i live till den.

hmmm. still trying to learn hong10 freeze. ... o.O" not doing very well. cant get mae head to stick out. waste of time la.. wa lao.. but it looks damn good. XDXD

heh. it's currently 5 in the morning. XD im juz imsomnic and bored.. so yea. i found a few pics from odac dat im gonna post up. juz for fun.



This here is the sunrise on the top of Gunung Chamah. at 2171m above sea level. my first G7.



:DD this is batch x.

today... wuz a sian chee pua day.. -.- honestly. the onli consolation wuz dat we could slack during pw cause we finished wad we needed to do before hand. haha. yea. rest of the day wuz completely.. urgh. brain murdering.

like geog. omg geog. so many bad signs and omens bout our impending results. o.O" die la. so gloomy. nxt monday results come out. sure mati one. lol. fan zhi's whole class chem results onli 2 ppl s rest of em U. wth. haha. but chem wad. diff from me. so e standard shud be diff. heh heh.

i am now in the midst of dolling out a stupid econs project dat shud hav been worked on during the hols... but yea. we didnt do it. so now suffering. morrow muz pass up. sucks. rushing it as much as possible. mayb tonight dun need slp. ... eh. wait a min. morrow got competition training. ah. den lidat cannot liao. heck la. morrow im gonna rush down and do cardio training on my own. ... i dunno if an survive sia. today i juz went with a short jog with fan zhi. shit. whole leg felt so tired and worn. dunno how to last morrow. evening still got 24 rounds to run. argh!!! i hate physical weakness... -.- lousy shit. i'll bet i'll come home feeling shitty again. crapus.

just got back from school. ... yea. slack day. well.. not realli la. it wuz a regular day. hav a new pe teacher. erm.. cant rmb her name liao. XD haha. so pai seh. nver mind.. find out nxt lesson. oh wait. nxt lesson having with jason liu. lol. val is wetting her pants. val chua btw. not val tan. XD yea. so dun be mistaken. haha...

training today wuz... i dunno. horrible? horrible but pleasent at the same time. -.- yea damn weird la. fer one ting. most of the training wuz spent in the lt. had dis cool montague and documentary bout The GREATEST PLACES. gets u wondering wad i'd consider one of my top 10 greatest places. XD no. 10 would be mae toilet. heh heh. whoops. lol. yea. e montague wuz thought provoking too. for the first time, i actually felt the repercussions of my decision to leave halfway during the XP. i realli should hav stayed. but den again, wads past is past. i cant do a ting bout it. i promised myself i'd nver regret, but even now. ... yea. im feeling quite, down i guess?, bout it. im blaming myself for my weakness. i totally broke down dere, even though no one saw it. it wuz so dark in my head, i couldnt see wad i wuz doin. sucks to be weak. it realli sucks to be at the bottom of the food chain.

training also consisted of 24 rounds, each round 1min40secs. slow alreay. but naturally i burned out. and im not sure it's totally my knee to blame. i dun believe it's a injury. i tink it's an illusion i came up with in my damnable weakness. yea. i burned fer a while, den i forced myself back onto the track. i didnt care. i swore to myself id finish it, if only to prove to myself i can do it. i mean, g.chamah wuz kind enuf to allow me the confidence of doing sum ting ive nver done. so it's time to repay dat kindness by using dat confidence. im not sure if i finished the whole ting. only 2 ppl did. cause at first, we ran as a group. but slowly, we broke up. yea. ppl lagged here lagged dere. i lagged like mad behind honda eugene dey all. but i still pushed on. im glad bout sum ting though. i finally felt wad rod wuz toking bout 2 months(?) ago. the strength of ur frens presence. ms chok also mentioned it. but i couldnt sense it den. now ive finally found it.

so. the only thing to do is to work at my weaknesses. i see em clearly. first step. friday morning. cardio training. sprint around the track fastest speed. rest 30 secs. another lap. top speed. do 2 sets. ms cheong's advice. time to take it.

here's a poem i found in the library today. im oso gonna write down my feelings at the time wen i tried to analyse it. cant rmb the author's name. but i'll find it and put it down.


The little world the subject of my muse
Is an huge task and Labour infinite
Like to a wilderness or mass confuse
Or to an endless gulf, or to the night.
How many strange meanders do i find?
How many paths do turn my straying pen?
How many doubtful twilights make me blind?
Which see to limn out this strange All of man?
Easy as it were the earth to portray out
Or to draw forth the heaven's purest frame
Whose restless course by order whirls about
Of change and place, and still remains the same
But how shall men's, or manners' form appear
Which while i write, do change from what they were?

My response:

A cheapening of the senses endowed
Disgraceful beyond all measure
This restless and abominable disintegration
Threatens to take the very heart of me.
Like a feint to the eye
Performed in all desperation
A stab at understanding
The layered and intricate minds of geniuses
Over-lunging on loose footing
We fall headfirst down to a deep well
Sucked forth into the abyss
Everdeeper into eternal night
Where heaven's brightest flames dwell
Have we the strenght to lay eyes upon them
The cheap, shamed knaves we are?
before being blinded by it's finesse
Thrust back into the night

ha. im blogging twice in the same day! o.o yea. nth to do honestly. my whole morning wuz blown away doing household chores and working on my econs.. now.. im juz slacking away. yea. real spontaneous. heh.

now waiting VERY impatiently for shawn and fan zhi to finish skool. poor dudes. XD got skool. as for me? heh heh. morrow den start. bugger. still havent done econs and EOM project yet. shit. i tink EOM gotta rush out tonight. yea. heck la. got all the material anyway. not realli overly worried. hais. sian man. realli. i wanna go use shawn's function room to break. ... long time no break liao.. argh.. wanna try out and learn hong10 halo freeze. ... o.O" hais... so shitted. mayb i shud reactivate my account on neopets. XD heh heh. sian man. u can tell how sian i am. LOL haha.

juz got the marist magazine. ... wa lao. i look damn weird without specs. haha... my bro is so damn anti social la. he's like leaning away from the rest of the group while smiling at the same time. o.O" wtf. lol.. argh. i tink i juz strained my left arm. juz came back from bball game with.. ... ... myself. XD yea. learning to do stationary layups with as little effort as possible so as not to burn myself out during a match. absolutely neccessary to learn dis. scully i make shiyu lose another match. show me his SCP face. eww.

hais. had to miss dan's slpover 2 nights ago. -.- father wouldnt allow. argh. shucks... all dese opportunities WASTED. haha. ah wells. study sia.. stop playing liao.. study.. promos are coming.. PROMOS. 6 letters dat spell a 4 letter word. DOOM. all angles if u look at it. XD haha. damn. still.. cant help feeling leftout.
:( win some lose some. at least i can look back on chamah. boi. ... cant wait fer morning runs to start.

oooh oooh.. :D got new pair of running shoes!! XDD heh heh. asics!! at last.. it's an older model.. bought it cause it wuz on sale. but hey. wadeva la. it's still asics. feels damn comfortable sia.. heh heh. oh yea. got sum lock laces as well. hmm. which pair should i install em on? ... o.O" im not even taking part in competitions la. wth do i need lock laces for.. hmm.. mayb i shall install em on the asics. den e asics i use at home. skool training i use the mizunos. XDD yea... awesome sia.

bboy. let's reflect. wad does it mean to be a bboy? personally. i tink it's the exploration and understanding of a new language. a language so unethical and unorthodox most people deny it's existence. :D MUSIC. haha. bboying is the expression of wad u understand from the beat. yea.. haha. wonder why im randomly doing dis now. ... muz be cause i hav nth to do. boi dat took me long enuf to realise.

k. im gonna go do sum pushups. ... peace.

you know sum ting? im actually working on this super super long post dat recounts mae adventures on g.chamah. ... o.O" dis explains the damn long hiatus. but hey! guess wad. i got sian. so decided to blog regular first. XD the report shall come out.. in say.. i dunno. depends. if i hav enuf time another 3 weeks oughtta do it. but if not, 3 months mayb not even enuf. heh.

ah. exams are finally over. ... .. wonder how i did though. heh. didnt hav much time or energy to study (den sum mure every afternoon still got time go play bball) die la. but i TINK i did pretty decent. hopefully can scrape passes in every subj. hu noes? we'll leave it to the unknown till it's known. XD

ive taken to staying up DAMN late into the night gaming on ps2 and surfing. (so if u TINK im offline, juz click and chat. i may be dere. heh heh) dunno why. after chamah come home ive been suffering from quite severe insomnia. once i went without slp fer 3 days. naturally body exhausted so fell deep slp e following day. haha. damn stupid la. but hey. dats the way it is. oh and yes. sum ting is wrong with my stomach man. i eat a lot now. junk food and normal stuff all go down into this seemingly depthless abyss. XD

had milk run 2 days ago. great stuff man. EVEN though i stopped like dunno how many times, i finally felt the energy that rod wuz talking bout. haha. i wuz completely busted in my knees and my quads felt like water. but den bernie comes along and pushes me foward. :D TKS BERNIE!!! haha. tks to her encouragement, i burned sum kid hu tried to push past me to the finish line. YES!!! i finally burned sum one!!! ... ... poor kid though. tink of his ego. ahha. so all in all finished run 5.3 in bout.. erm. 31 plus mins. bernie came in 32. and she wuz rite behind me. yea.. im so gonna take part in more runs. XD oh yes. i shall try and get dis foto of me and bernie posing in front of the camera as we ran. lol. cam whores. seriously.

hmm. went fer mass with val manda and edward. mae bro wuz SUPPOSED to sit with us, but being the anti social twit, he decided not to. o.O" dunno wads wrong with him. mayb it's juz me, but val seems more hyper ever since she started attending poly. XD now my testicles are in danger. ..... ooooo. damn.

peace