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oh cool. dis is me and gwen. wen switched ties. ahaha. juz messing with dis image upload function. nver knew how to do it. XD TKS VAL!! :D

wa yesterday damn suay. whole day wuz juz.. LOL. kk. first thing's first. i wanna thank all the members of 07A3 hu helped me out in the process of re-obtaining my racquets. :D tks a lot guys. it realli wuz the best ting dat eva happened in my life. haha

i kinda fergot to check and search fer my collar pin yesterday. so yea. i ALSO fergot to rush down to dat miserable excuse for a bookshop to get a replacement. ($1.50?! WTF) yea. so i sorta freaked.. i mean. i didn't wanna be sent running round the skool like a noob searching fer 10 badges. o.O" gotta admit, creative punishment. sadistic too. so like yea. i freaked last min wen everyone wuz lining up so i borrowed from mal. yea. tot i wuz home free. BIG mistake. cause dis chi teacher, super kaypo like anything, gave me and mal a telling off. ok. fine. but it doesn't end dere. she den proceeded to make a shit of herself by gng up to azlan and pointing out 'the boi hu didn't bring his collarpin and tried to borrow from other ppl'. yupp. she's in my top hit list now. i actually tried borrowing from jaz after e attempt with mal failed. o.O but stupid kaypo shit had to be an 'i'm all morals' sorta efftard and get my ass into e cooker. ... hmmm. dats e bad part la. but i oso realised dat azlan is fair. fairer den dk la anyway. in mshs, my dm wud take any attempt at reasoning as an excuse. but here, azlan realli heard me out and spared me punishment. ... i hav to seriously get used to dis. o.O"

rite. now. me and gwen went and organised a badminton game to make use of e second 1.5 hr break of the day. i mean. it's kinda sian to keep stoning in e canteen all day. honest. so like yea. e precious day i informed a couple of ppl to spread e word. funni. e word muz hav been spread but no one brought pe uni. o.O" ooookae. i wuz like wth la.. juz carry on with the damn thing. wad're the chances of getting caught eh? .... another BIG ass mistake. we were like playing playing playing (got mae manhood destroyed by gwen. but regained a portion of it by playing wit humaira, gwan lin and :D albert. oh yea tim and zai and fiona r good :P) wen azlan and nother fat dude comes scooting along e corridor. coincidence? i dun effing tink so. i tink dose 2 nosy girls on e second floor decided to play "moral-for-the-day" and report us in. sounds familiar? scroll up o.O.

so yea. all 3 of my racquets got cuffed and taken away. yea... i wuz distraught. AHAHA. damn stupid. i wuz like rolling all over the floor with my racquet cover on my head. sum one shud hav taken a shot of it.. XD ahah. but (not sure hu) said dat azlan wud return racquets if e ppl playing in uni mopped hall. now wait. .... .... ... ... class' response?... ... ... ... ... immense. dey all wanted to help and pitch in with such enthusiasm dat wud hav had me bawling with immense emotion had i not been utterly dehydrated. :D tks ppl. so wad SHUD hav been a miserable-several-mins of punishment, we ended up having a class bonding session. :D talk bout e turn to e day. so fun. k. wen i manage to get sum foto's onto e blog i'll show u sum shots. waha. mayb vids? :D

k. i wrote a poem?! *shock shock* haha. and i'm feeling poety today. so i'll juz post it shall i? :D it's bout breakdancing. o.O"

Dark.
Squalid.
Stuck.
Empty.

All and one.
Fill me up to the brim
Up to bursting-point.
Agony.

Then the music starts.
And it's all swept clean away.
Leaving me new and fresh.
I'm ready.

I'm moving.
Driven by the rhythm.
I tentatively explore my boundaries.
And without hesitation

I Break Them.

Peace. :D

whew. nother long day today. ahaha...i realli got nth to sae sia... but i personally tink, of all mae lessons, MT sucks the best. :D waha. honest. one. teacher is SUPER boring. and old. though dats not realli much of a factor. :P two. e subj itself is originally DULL. three. e teacher cant teach. so yea. no use one... i kena arrow. JARED AND GWEN LA. tok tok. :P heh heh.



man i'm damn greedy sia. ate twice. XD ahaha. cant help it sia. i'm a growing chum. heh. looks like mae cash wun last sia.. whoops. always overspend one.. cannot make it sia.. even zai complaining. '...dat group of ppl always every break wat one.' waha... LOL. hoo. but realli. even with subtle improvements, e japanese food still realli cannot make it oso. ahaha tim and i were like BITCHING bout e whole ting.. so damn funni la. and i tell u, hu eva hears tim laugh catches it.HAHA!!! damn stupid la. we all heard him first round, den we started on our on bout fer no effing reason! o.O"" wth.

ya noe actually got a lot of things to blog bout. juz lazy. :D ahaha. k. i wanna go read up on theory of evolution. where'd banana's come from? :D peace.

haha fun day today... finished at 12.30. XD awesome sia... had GP in e morn. ooookae... sounds damn boring i noe la. but gp to me, is kinda like ss. and e teacher in MI (she lives in e same block as me. o.O") is kinda alike in temperment as mr wong. ... so cool la. mr wong rox. so as u can guess... lessons are nice. :D but she is a bit biased towards different sexes. o.O uh huh. rite. havent seen dat though. gwen and maira hav been complainging bout it.


break. 45 mins. had lunch. crapped.

econs. mass lecture. 45 mins. ohhhh yea.. i like dis. ahaha. all lectures are hereby declared as SLACK periods! haha. i wuz juz sitting dere toking nonsense with tim.. listening to mp3... laughing. gaying. shitting. haha... e cher wuz completely revising wad we already hav been revising fer e last few weeks. ... so ya.

Lit. 1.5 hours. ... oh shit. sucks.. i cant believe e most shittyest of teachers are being chucked into e subj dat i love. o.O"" effers. completely utter bollocks. i mean. we had a teacher hu DEFINITELY couldn't teach fer fucking nuts. COMPLETELY lost e class' attention. yea. going on and on and on bout shakespeare. first 5 mins. beginning symptoms of BOREDOM start to show. by 10 mins? full. fledged. unconsciousness. horrible. k. and like today. dis ms a*g. yea. not gonna put full name ah... i read newspapers and i hav no wish to teo slam. but wadeva. k. she had dese massive boobs. >>>>>>>>>>wait a min. lost track k.>>>>>>>> erm. no. k. she had dis huge butt k? den she like wore UBER tight undies and a clinging pair of i-dunno-wads. e result wuz excessive display of bottom fats. o.O" yea. dere were like, wad u call ems?, ribbing!. yea. RIBBING ppl. ribbing. like mini tyres. veri gross. not actually relevant to her teaching. :P whoops. im a bad person. ahha. so like she cant teach la. voice is EXTREMELY uneven. and she's visibly nervous. not very good to be nervous in class. u juz get bullied. so... yea u can guess wad happened. waha.

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ahhhhh... EASY day... up to 115 onli. like literaly slacked thorugh everything la... let's see... erm. first period. ECONS. lecture. perfect opportunity to take naps and catch up on lost time with frenz. o.O" RIGHT. haa. i'm juz not the perfect student la k... but hey. i paid attention. sum of it. lol.

RIIGGHHT.

nxt lesson. GEOG. oh yea. i like geog. saw is a nice teacher... hoenst. sum guy from HQ? well he's got his head on right. haha. so like ya.. most of e answers i gave today MIRACULOUSLY were right! XO. freakin amazing. ha. mayb i'm smarter den i give myself credit for! .... RIIGGHHT.

we had an hour plus break after dat.. everyone wuz juz crapping bout skools stuff and all how girls juz NEED to bitch. oookae. enuf of dat stuff. so i juz chaboed into a corner and beeped val.. checking in on her finger... haha her hamster bit her and it sorta swelled up. WAIT. not funni. so stop laughing. now. ... k. lol. yea called and talked to her fer bout 20 mins. funni. it wuz juz 15 lil mins. but felt like several years. :D wish i had more moments like dat... wen i'm so contented time slows and juz slides right off me... *sigh* yea. good times. XD tks val.

had pizza. got fatter. day ends. peace. ...






















































i hate the ending.

okok. time to update liao. hmmm... today heavy day sia. finish 5... hais... headache man. literally. i still hav one. not completely recovered from this god damned flu of mine.. o.O" argh... mae lower thigh stil hurts.. buay tahan man. gosh morrow still wanna go shoot ball sia. i muz be nuts.. gotta retink mae strategy. :P

normal start to day.. woke up. pissed. brush teeth. chase lizards away from my cup. take a swig of expired milk. piss again. change to uni. chuck all mae stuff into bag. pop fone and mp3 into bag.. ladeda.. went down. poked fan zhi so we could get going. >>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>fast foward>>>>>>>>


ooooook. i'm now at AMK station waiting fer gwen. ahaha. damn lame la... fan zhi and donovan want to wait with me. so pai seh sia... stupid mal. jump me from the back.. wa lao... nearly dropped into the god damn tracks. siao TAR BOR. haha.. so like gwen comes waddling up a few mins later. meanwhile? yea. 3 EMPTY trains pass by.. .... i got nth to sae sia. o.O

hais.. standard la.. went to macs to wait fer everyone.. waited fer julian too. fella took like so damn long to come by the time we got to skool dey started assembly. haha. nver been late b4. :D i like it. call me a rebel or wadeva... i tink it's stupid. hais... LONG LONG LONG MT lesson in e morn. god damn la... fell aslp on the spot. o.O hais. sry la. i'm not a good student. cant help it.. if mr doggy ear is standing in front of u droning...

rest of day? standard. ... erm. sry. need to go. cause head juz split. o.O" peace.

wa song. today realli damn song. it SEEMS i hav FINALLY managed to break out of mae hopeless cycle of morbidity. XD fuck finally sia... i mean. it wuz realli wearing me down la.. being all shit rubbing and stuff. i tink dat tok with jaz dat nite did e trick. :D TKS SIA JAZ.

today uber short day. i love sia. fantastic.. all e slack lessons all come out. haha... oh yea.. had debate in gp too. damn fun.. mae first go at it. i wuz teamed with humaira and gwen VS The Opposition. ... i noe la.. it's damn nerdy. but it realli wuz genuinely FUN. ahah... lolz... like shouted a lot... dunno. mayb it's juz e way i do it. :P yea. shan wuz realli damn good la... fantstic speaker. veri hard to match up to.. hais. hard to beat SIA. haha...

yea. so like rest of e lessons damn slack la. lit wuz really shitty today. sum other cher came in to do shakespeare fer half e lesson. now. e subj MIGHT hav been slightly more interesting had ANOTHER cher handled it. so yea. dats all i hav to sae bout dat bore-me-to-shits lesson. crap.. den had poem analysis after dat. :D mae fave. ahah.

i actually sucked big time at soccer. ya. i did. now i dun suck so bad. ha. went off to e bball court nearby mi to play soccer. ya. ... i noe. ... bball court. ... street soccer. ... no connection. bloody ironic rite? well.. in times of desperation... one muz be able to accept comprimise.. yea.. but we still managed to hav like sufficient space to bang around la.. uber nice sia.. i learnt diff ways of kicking. zhai's effort. tks sia zhai. yea. bert wuz practice buddy. o.O riiiiite. sounds kinda gay la. shits. fiona li wen and humaira supposed to join... but fiona and li wen had track.. i tink. and humaira wanted to do sum ting concerning dance. .. i still cant get dat image of dis guy in a leotard outta mae head. it wuz like the most fucked up and scary ting i eva seen. mae crotch screams for mercy everytime it passes through mae mind. .... wa ha.

k. i'm going. i actually hav a ton of poems to shove on dis site.. but juz too damn lazy to type.. nxt time den! :D peace.

haha... skool life rox wen u hav frenz. yea.. MI feels like second home already! haha... yea... i'll probably get attached to it as usual.. and freak out wen i hav to leave... o.O it's the way of life sia. HAIS. attachment... not for me man.

toking to vanessa now.. hais. telling her dat i feel 'out of place' among church ppl.. i dunno why la. dere is NOTHING wrong wit dem honestly.. deir all good ppl. it's juz... like. shit la.. a lot of crap happened down dere recently.. and all the stuff at home and all. it used to like realli get to me and shit? ya noe? likr it hurt a lot. fuck i sound like sum sorta wuss.. ha. like wad mae father calls me. mayb i am a wuss.. i wuz always the weakest. it juz sucks la. but now.. sum ting died. dis is so gay and emo but. wth i cant help it la.. fuck. i realli wussing it now.. i juz dun feel the need to mingle with other ppl so much anymore la. i used to find it important cause it made me feel wanted and accepted and stuff. it USED to feel right. but now... ha. no need. i mean... yea. shit.

i juz need to break again.

havent blogged fer a while liao. haha. veri extremely bz at MI... everyday wake up so early den gotta do dunno wad... alamak no energy sia. ohhh yea. a few days back, me and shawn went to esplanade to break. awesome sia.. i mean like fer 2 reasons la. dere wuz dis huge expanse to do wadeva the hell u want... yea. dere were a couple of skaters tearing it up la.. but guess wad? granite flooring. :D waha. so dey can do wadeva dey want and nth will happen. yea. wadeva. anyway. breaking.. like fantastic la.. so much freedom! haha. so like first part, juz me and shawn prac. no one wiz dere la. except a couple of weirdos hu hang around dere. look homeless to me.. but dey wear executive uniforms?! wtf.

yea. so had fun pracing fer a while la. juz doin basic footwork like 6 step and stuff... turtles. yea. den we got a bit tired and siamed fer a while... oh yea. best part. came back and found some other bboys were practicing too! oh yea sia.. aha. so wel did a joint prac la. excellent man. learnt a lot sia... now i noe why mae handglide nver could work properly... not supposed to do barehanded! stupid sia... i like, put a plastic bag under mae palm and BOOM!. fly sia.. damn fast. did bout 3 complete revs. awesome sia. oso prac more advanced moves... one handstand... err.. valdez.. and learnt new freeze! haha. err chair freeze. yea. a bit hard to get into la... need more prac. and had sum headstarts wit mae wind mill. XD finally... shud hav more such pracs! yea. i sound gay.

hmm. had interesting geog lesson.. haha. it wuz like.. we were grouped into 5s.. i wuz with hon sean and 3 other gals. err.. ming shian and 2 other malay gals whose names i didn't catch. yea. given a blueprint and OFF we went round ths skool completing sum worksheet.. ahaha. damn dumb la.. but sure as hell beats bein stuck in a classroom.. :P

i'm off anyway... gonna prac a bit more breaking. :D peace.

The booming echoes become a part of me
driving my feet foward,
in a desperate frenzy, i fly.
with every sweep of my hands and step of my feet
i am pushed furthur past my limits
past all boundaries
past all expectations
into the unknown

Adrenaline sends my heart thumping
Filling it with a life of it's own
The rhythm it creates controls me
one minute foward
one moment backwards.
A natural, flowing rhythm that feels
oh so right

Nothing can stop me. I am invincible.
you can try to step up
but i'll kick you aground
in a twisting flurry of feet
every so often i find myself booted
my place taken with a misstep
and a trip
but i'll always rise back
I am Immortal.

the leaves overhead rustle
in the passage of the wild untamed winds
i look into the heavens
with a burning jealousy in my eyes

a stake driven through the heart
to pierce the soul within
now i recoil at the slightest
like the coward i am

i'm stuck in transit
with no where to go
no one to go to
stagnant in my motionlessness

blank of mind
without purpose
my feeble attempts at living
is my only reason to laugh


i juz tot bout dis as i wuz cycling.. it makes no sense to me wad so eva.. haha. hopeless. i realli cant understand dis poem. i juz tot bout it and typed as it went.. so yea. man.. so exhausted.. cycled to upper pierce and back.. haha. fun la of course..

yesterday went to sp wit manda val and faye. had talk after talk after talk... lotsa nonsense la.. but it's all interesting nonsense. haha. seriously considering.. but even poly requires sum good scores. heh heh. wonder wad i got. o.O den went to bugis cause faye broke her bag and needed a new one. (gosh. i'm toking like she's mae fren or sum ting. ... wad makes a fren? sounds like good topic fer poem... HMMM.) i wuz like damn lethargic e whole day... so sry to all e ppl hu came in contact wit me. i'm not being anti. i'm juz veri veri tired. MI is realli draining. not completely used to it yet... so sry all. yea. den went to manda's house to collect her bowling bag and wad not.. wa lao. her room alone is like, wad?, 1/4 mae house? o.O shite sia. hha.

mass... disaster. i kena quarantine. no one wanna sit nxt to me. wonder if dey noe wad it feels like... yea. in case u dun. it's shitty. sucks. mayb dats why i'm in kinda a lousy mood today... i'm so sick of stuff la... it's like i'm having an ultra long hormone attack... i'm juz so... urgh. lonely or sum ting... i need to go out and break or sum ting. i NEED to. i'm dying of lethargy... ... sry all again.

peace.

ok. changed skin after so long! haha... yea. it's a bit VULGAR i noe... but it's good fer me la. i need it to remind myself how to live... cause wadeva happens, i will always hav a part to play in it.. so yea. haha uber chim sia. but yea. i like it. sucks though dat e damn flash box is BLACK wen e whole skin is... wad? brown? i dunno. i hav poor colour identification skills. :D

yesterday wuz e last day of orientation... (thank god.) i mean... it wuz fun la! i hav to admit.. BUT. i'm juz not a cheering person ya noe? o.O i'm not even sure wad dat means... lolz. but yea. i'm juz not realli into cheering and screaming mae arse off till mae throat goes bonkak. hur hur. ya. now i sound like air coming out of a balloon. ... slowly imagine.

oh YEA. dere were sum breakers performing yesterday too... like e finale muz put up skit la.. so got sum DOOOODES decided to break... if i may sae so myself. it wuz BLOODY pathetic. sry. no offense meant. but yea. it wuz. cause why? okok... dis guy went up. no top rock nth. juz DECIDED to go into a one hand? funny. if u could call it a one hand cause it onli lasted fer wad? 2 secs? ok... mae bad. i'm being mean. but his hand wuz wobbling so much.. gosh. okok. den another fella on e same skit as mr one hand. did 6 step... okok. not shabby. a bit 'loose' round e edges dats all.. den he went into freeze. standard. but. BUT... he couldnt hold e freeze. went all haywire... horrible la... okok. den james' group oso got one. dis fella like mr one hand up dere... no intro juz go into freeze. ... where is the style la... breakdancing is like SS and sex! muz hav foreplay... no foreplay no fun... RIGHT?! i mean... ya la. a bit crude but...

ok. i seriously need to think bout dis. peace.

gosh.. another long tiresome day at MI man... but. gotta be nice and admit la. it wuz e nicest day yet...:D yea... more interesting la anyway. cause like got games and stuff.. but damn tiring still. haha! i hav no endurance man... lol.

u noe dat blue haired guy i toked bout? yea. he's actually quite sane... DEEP underneath.. heh. ya. like wad u see is dis pai kia going around doin dumb stuff and attracting attention fer no purpose wadsoeva and well... making everyone laugh at e same time la. but wen u tok to him, he's as sound as a bell. if a bell is sound. XD. wtf sia.

yea... morrow is another shit hole. might be a good shit hole though. i gotta get past a hair check... shit. if i fail it, i go home... yea. strict hor? damn shits... gals get it easier la. juz tie hair... guys teo jack man... o.O dats sucks... hope i dun kena... XD

oh well. off to bed fer me.. damn tired see? peace...

juz came back from MI. ... o.O wa lao la... whole day stand sit stand sit like sum sorta dickhead... SIAN man. headache now. still gotta dig our 20 bucks fer em to be tutored in e art of cheerleading by dis gay like fella. o.O oh shite man.

ANYWAY. away from all the nonsense dat happened today (including a 2 hr lecture and lousy canteen food.).. hais. so sian... gonna tell mae dad i'm gonna go to sp wit manda and val on sat instead of morrow. XD oh yea... can come home early use com! YAY. wait. provided dey let us off early la. o.O sucks man. why oh why did i register... fer fuck's sake la... hais. but at least can make sum new frenz la. ha. got dis malay dude and another chi guy... den a few girls... LOTSA chij fer sum reason.. chung cheng... yea. all very crowded and mixed. oh yea. and dis retarded dick wit blue hair(dyed of course)... haha. yea... ok la quite fun. but damn tiring... k... i cant sae anymore. mae wrist hurts. poem? :D try dis la.

i walk
i talk
i laugh
i cry

i'm human in everyway.
until you look inside,
only then can you see my flaw
my defect and failing

i am hollow
an abyss in my soul
being eaten by an unknown invader
from the inside out

like wood that is rotten on the inside
i will break
into a million pieces
washing away on the oceans of time

and i will be forgotten.